After Iowa

For those of you who have been with me on my journey over the past eight months, I thank you. It has been filled with tremendous growth, awakening, awarenesses and a mixture of joy and pain. Am I different? Yes and no.

I am different because my perspective has enlarged, refined and crystalized in ways unanticipated. I see the world different than I did before…better, more grand, more alive.

I am the same because I know in truth my essence is my essence is my essence. There is no changing who I am at the core of my being because in that place I am enough. I know that. Yet, my humanity is my humanity and it is from that place I am willing to work on matching my thoughts, words and deeds more and more to my essence. And that work sometimes doesn’t come in a neat and tidy package.

In the past eight months, I have experienced more profound aloneness and loneliness than ever before. I have experienced moments of hopelessness like I did back when I was 25 and at the height of my self-destructive behaviors. (The good news is I am now able to experience the feelings without getting swallowed by them or allowing them to make choices for me.) This time around I was able to be with those very difficult feelings without judgement and instead, have compassion, care and love for myself renewed and deepened. I kept on choosing myself over and over again.

It always amazes me when I move through one of these transformational times. Before ‘it’, I think I am already seeing an amazing world but yet, when I am at the end of ‘it’, the world seems even more brilliant than before. That is one reason I am always open to ‘it’. I know it will open my mind, my heart and my life in so many ways that I could never fathom.

That is what is happening now. My life is changing at warp speed and I have the privilege of watching it unfold decision by decision by decision.

I was only home 6 days in June purposely. I needed time to integrate my Sacred Passage experience and the last eight months. I visited my family. I attended the annual FLI Retreat. I fulfilled a dream by attending the University of Iowa Summer Writing Workshop.

At Iowa, I took two poetry classes. I know, I know. Never a poem left my pen until I was in the woods and now they are flowing out of me. I have been told by my coach and my instructors to create a chapbook of my poems. So stay tuned.

Until then…I would like to share one with you….

Fish Dishes

Thinking of this now,
staring at the fish dishes
I never liked, the ones
mother saved
wrapped in cream color paper.

Thinking of this now,
wishing I had never left,
cracking the catfish, perch
and sole sloughing it
off like water droplets on glass.

Thinking of this now,
flushing the salmon, blue gill
and trout. I devour carrots,
peapods and figs. The night
light on for company.

Stay Fearless my friends…stay true, stay clear, be you!

By Rhonda Britten

Rhonda, voted America’s Favorite Life Coach is here to help you get unstuck. “Everyone needs Fearless Living”- Oprah Winfrey With her acclaimed method called Fearless Living, Rhonda Britten has helped thousands of people let go of indecision, gain clarity of purpose, and take life-changing risks. Her work exposes the roots of fear and gives you the tools to move beyond that insidious universal feeling of “not being good enough.” The result is unstoppable confidence and a world of unlimited possibilities.

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