The world is tough enough. The world is hard enough. Hug the people you love today. Hug the people you work with today. Just hug one another. Let’s take care of one another. It may be the thing that saves us.
There was a vortex created with Robin Williams passing yesterday. A vortex of pain that some souls will choose to dive into. (There’s a phenomena that exists that when a famous person commits suicide there is usually a rash of copycat suicides across the country.)
I felt that vortex open up and try to seduce me as well. My Achilles heel has always been suicide. It is something that has been handed down through the generations. The latest victim in my family, after my father took his own life, was my nephew Jason who took his at the tender age of 35, just a few years ago.
Jason’s death was like a sucker punch to the throat. It made me feel so vulnerable to the Siren’s song of suicide. She is so seductive.
The lure of ‘no more pain’ is hard to resist when the internal agony has been going on for so long and it seems there is no end in sight. I have experienced that pain in my own dark times and I have fought with the Siren myself. Three times.
When fear is running the show, feelings can be dangerous. Unless you can identify your feelings and know how to process them, fear will have you feel what works for fear. And that never works in your favor.
Sharing a piece of my spiritual journey with you definitely brings up fear of ridicule and judgement. My Wheel of Fear is on high alert. It wants me to question myself. "What if you don't want to hear about all that woo-woo stuff or what if you think it's plain ol' dumb? Or maybe you think it's blasphemy to talk this way."
In the past month, 600 Boot Campers (including myself) had the courage to earn a whopping 19,267 fearless points. That’s a lot of individual acts of fearlessness!
No one can be fearless alone. Without support — without having an “accountability buddy” — neither you nor I will ever reach the potential within us that is just waiting to burst forth.
Unless you are aware of how you feel, you can’t choose something different. And choose something different you must. When your feelings aren’t supporting where you want to go, you must be willing to put them aside and move forward.
Over 20 years ago, I gave up something that ran my life. Some people might call it an “addiction”; others call it a “nasty habit.” Whatever you want to call it, I’m talking about something that you believe you need in order to be okay.
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